Nay! Haven’t packed yet. This is not the usual me, I am not jumping around with uncontrollable excitement, I am not high with my typical spree of insane blabbering, I am not sleepless with a million thoughts. I am not nervous to face tomorrow.
I am sober, I am willing to wait while time rolls out the events at its own pace, I am clam, without any expectations, I feel wee bit stupid (read impulsive) about my decision, I lack courage to face the reactions, don't care enough about the reactions. I don’t have the heart to break their heart, I cant lend my ears to yet another pointer at my not-quite-right-doings, I am sure that I want to do this, I am certain about taking this step forward, I am out of reason though, but I know that I will do this regardless of having any, I feel torn apart between what is rational and what is emotional, I am choosing not to rationalize my emotions, I am discarding myself as impulsive, ready to take on whatever that comes my way….
Voice will take its form, vision will finally see the truth, the way it is! Whether a gain or loss, the moment is mine.
The wait was long, the wait is no more…
1 comment:
mmkay ms. garrison!
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